Goal #1: No Goals.

I began this blog about six months ago with the intention of it being a weight loss deal. I never got into it and had 0 posts concerning the matter.

Tonight I had a special spiritual experience. After prayer concerning things close to my heart I was directed to read the quotes, ideas, goals, and received inspiration that I have written down and posted in various places in my bedroom. As I moved through each part of my room I came to the picture of Christ I have hanging next to my window. On this picture I had posted 5 small pink sticky notes each containing counsel from D&C 93:1.

1. Forsake my sins
2. Come unto Him
3. Call on Him
4. Obey His voice
5. Keep His commandments

By doing these things the scripture says you may "...see my face and know that I am" I closed my eyes and began to ponder on these things. When I opened my eyes again and saw His face in the picture frame I was overcome by the Spirit. Christ was smiling upon me (Why? I do not know.... I do not deserve that). I felt engulfed in His love.

As I pondered, it was revealed to me that I am to stop making goals. I know this seems contrary to the way Kayla does things and maybe even to what we learn from the scriptures and our prophets but it was clear direction and I am going to heed my prompting. I am for a time not to make a single goal but to turn all my thoughts and energies to living under the complete influence of the Holy Ghost.

I know that this is going to take much dedication, practice and patient persistence. I must be worthy at every moment of the day to be under His influence. I do feel at this point in my life I listen to the Holy Ghost and heed the promptings I receive but not even close to the way the Lord has made clear to me tonight that I must be. And I do believe my constant goal making distracts my mind away from feeling and hearing promptings. This is a tool Satan uses against me- distracts me with TONS of goals so it is impossible to be successful at any of them and makes it difficult to be in tune with the spirit enough to know what God really wants me focused on. If I am able to come under the complete influence of the Holy Ghost, goal making I feel would be hardly necessary because I know that if I will listen the spirit will direct me in all things I should do, weather they be temporal or spiritual. Though I do not see much difference between "temporal " and   "spiritual" because I believe all things are spiritual. That is a whole other discussion though and I will not get into this night.

Now as I laid down to sleep with joy in my soul and peace in my heart I decided I needed to record the key instructions I received tonight. On a piece of paper I wrote "live under the complete influence of the Holy Ghost." Next to this I put "This is it." I immediately remembered that was the same name of a blog I had started forever ago. How and why I remembered that??? Well....... I do not believe any of this is coincidence at all. I do not think no reason exists to why I started this blog months ago and could not come up with one thing to begin writing about although I had thought about it on more than one occasion. No this is not at all chance. The Lord has had this planned.

I do not believe this blog is necessarily for anyone to read  but I believe it is going to be a key factor in my spiritual development and becoming a more righteous devoted disciple of Jesus Christ. I will record here the journey I am beginning in living by the counsel I have received tonight.

I am far from perfect and have made several mistakes, even in the last 24 hours. I have done things against the will of God in full knowledge and awareness at the time that it was not in line with God's will. BUT Christ still loves me. AND I was still greatly blessed tonight to be able to have such an experience even as a sinner. How? I do not deserve such mercy. My heart is full of gratitude. I am greatly humbled by this experience and look forward with hope and excitement to the things I will be learning in the near future.